Angelic Scars

 

 

Everyday I go to work and sit behind my machine I tell myself I am going to take an hour or two to update my space and visit my friends space as well, and as clock work something always seems to get in the way of my plans. As usual I have to go to the field everyday to do site visits for plans that are sent to the department, plus see clients and sometimes attend meetings. When you work for the Government of any Country you do not just work for one department you work for every Government agencies, so basically I do not have a life.

 

Trying to juggle work, family, online courses, my romantic life, social life and of course blog life is not as easy as I thought it would be at all. I have this bad habit of putting all my energy into one thing and tend to neglect the others at time and I find myself doing exactly that right now. I normally think if you are going to do something it has to be perfect or else there is no need for it then," (perfectionist) I know it is bad, it's like a disease......". It is sad when your friends have to call you up to see you if are still on the Island (the Island is so small so that is the real sad part), or leave messages trying to find out how you are doing.

 

  

 

So I guess I need help with my selective interest and my perfectionist ways and that is where my fellow bloggers comes in. Suggestions would really help right now...............

 

 

Hello Guys it has been a while and I do apologize for staying away so long. I do hope you all had a wonderful holiday and that all is well with all my Cyber friends. I will come by and visit every page today so please forgive me for not doing so in such a long time.

 

I must tell you guy's about my trip home and my other stop "a very special stop". I had a long vacation got a chance to visit home and spend quality time with my family and friends, something I really needed. I must say being home was a blast got to catch up on the party scene, and eat some good Jamaican food, something I have been missing like crazy. Also gained a few pounds, but no complains over here ahahhah. The only thing I was a little sad about where my vacation is concerned is that I did not get a chance to do all I wanted to do while home, like visiting all my friends, there are a few who are mad at me, so let me say I am sorry if do read this. I didn't have that much time there because I had to split my vacation between home and St. Kitts. Seems like two weeks home was not enough.

 

But I must say thanks to my girlfriend "Angie" for taking me in for those two weeks as my family house was packed.  Also for entertaining me, whenever I wanted to go partying "for sure I know she did not mind that part" and also whenever I wanted to go shopping . Even though I made her spend money I'm sure she would have rather not spend, but I am sure she will not disagree she got some really nice things so money well spent. I know I have that effect on people especially when it comes to shopping.

 

Now let's get to my other stop, which was in St. Kitts. I had the best time ever. I know I have been away from the blog world in a while and there are new things in my life that my friends do not know about, like the fact that there is a new person in my life and he is working in St. Kitts right now, hence the reason for being there. I spent a glorious 9 days there, even though I can't tell you much about the place, I can tell you where the good party scenes are and the places to go for good food and of course the best part about the place was him. It is so wonderful to meet someone you can feel completely comfortable around, I can be myself no pretending or excuses and he makes me feel special in everyway.

 

Anyways guys that's all for now, there will be plenty of time to tell you about all the new things going on in my life. But for now just want to wish all my Cyber friends a safe and prosperous new year, and I do hope all your wishes will come through. Also if resolutions were made out there, good luck with those, I did not make any because I know I am not good at keeping those. I tend to break them in the first week, bad I know. I will just keep doing what I have been doing, so far it seems to have been working, not perfectly but I can live with it, minor adjustment wouldn't hurt though.

 

 

 

Hey Guy's my machine is back and working like magic, however it is now vacation time and I  will be heading home tomorrow. "Ti's the season to be jolly and indeed I am", I will get to see my family and friends and plus in a few days I will be celebrating my birthday and what better way to celebrate than with your family and friends.

 

Before I go I want to wish all my cyber friends out there a Merry Christmas, hope you will all receive all you've wished for and please be safe and cautious especially while driving.

 

I will be back online in January, back to my usual bloging, so until then keep safe and don't do anything I would not do .

 

 

Hey Guy's I think this is some sort of conspiracy, but after writing my last entry my computer decided to take a long nap on me and I am still waiting over here for it to wake up Sheeesh

 

We had a power outage a few weeks ago, and of course since then I cannot get anything out of the stupid computer, so now I cannot make my usual entries .

 

I have missed you guys and it so hard for me to come online while at work to make my usual entry or comment on my fellow blogers space.

 

I do apologies for not coming around in such a long time, but I do hope to be back very soon, just as soon as my poor computer is nursed back to good health .

 

So guys please don't forget about me, hope to be back very soon, also I will try to steal a few minutes to comment on pages, so please forgive me for not doing so in a long time.

 

I would like to think of myself as a go getter, never allowing anyone to dictate what I should and should not do especially when it comes to love. I've always believed that if you want to find true love you should find it in your own time and in your own way and not allow yourself to be forced into something you are not ready for. So I decided why not try going on a few dates, that's the best way to meet a few guys, get to know what they are really made of, see how compatible their method of thinking are when compared to mine. Plus dating does not necessarily have to be a one on one occasion, it could be a group of friends out together, sometimes this is the best way to get to know someone, you will get to see how they react/interact when in a large group, also dating allows us to weed out those we are definitely not compatible with, and also prepare us for that one special person we've been waiting or looking for.

 

However during this dating process I realized I was feeling lonely, I had all these dates and I felt so alone. I finally realize when this loneliness came along, it came along when I was trying to find happiness, because for some strange reason I thought what I was feeling wasn't enough and if I could somehow find this special person I would be happier than I have ever been. Silly of me I started making me unhappy because all these dates were rather disappointing, because I was going about this thing the wrong way. I had an unrealistic list in my head, a list I knew no one person could fill, and by doing this I was setting everyone up to fail. Plus even without the list few were just down right slimy, so I have decided to give up for a while, well not really give up but approach this dating thing in a totally different way. This time I will approach it with the assistance of someone better at weeding out the bad seeds than I can.

 

I have finally decided to truly ask God for his help, because I am obviously not doing a good job on my own. I am not saying I am in need of someone in my life, but it wouldn't hurt to have someone around either. I am sure God did not put us on earth to live a lonely and loveless life, I know we have the love of our family and friends, but there is just something different about having that one special person to lean on when the time arises. So now I am putting my complete trust in him and if that person should come along I hope my eyes are wide open to see him and my heart is ready to receive him.

 

I would like the next person I kiss to be my prince and not just another slimy old toad.

 

 

 

 

 

"We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can fly only by embracing each other."
-lucian de crescenzo

 

Hey guy's it's so good to finally be able to do my postings again. The pass few days have been a bit hectic, apart from the usual work load I had to do a little packing last week because we had to move on Saturday. I am now aching all over, I really hate moving. If I could afford to have someone come in pack all my things, pack them in the truck, transport them and unpack and arrange the house in the way I want it to be I would so pay them in a heart beat. However moving here is too expensive so of course me and Mom's had to do the packing ourselves, with the help of three friends so good to have them around hahahahhah.

 

But I must say I have been missing my space and my space buddies, I do hope I wont have any reason to stay away this long again. This will be a short entry today especially since I am at work, I will be able to do my usual blogging when I get home this evening or tomorrow.

 

I just want to send a big hugs and smiles  to all those who came by, it is actually good to feel missed .

Have a wonderful day guys.

 

 

     

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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But what I find funniest of them all is the fact that men and women reach their sexual peak at totally different ages. Men reach theirs at about eighteen, while women reach theirs at around thirty-five. Now men this joke is really being played on you. I always wonder why is this so though; we were all placed here to provide company to each other as well as reproduce and enjoy each other in many different situations. 

 

 

 

                    

 

 

 

Moral excellence comes about as a result of habit. We become just by doing just acts, temperate by doing temperate acts, brave by doing brave acts.

 

 

We go through life preaching and giving advice to others, and never seem to take our own advice. I have learnt something very valuable and that is if you are not willing to listen to your own advice, do not give it to others.

 

I am at a cross road right now, because I have done something that has caused me to be very disappointed in myself and I find it hard to really look at myself as well as the person I have wronged.

 

It is so strange how easily a situation can change. One minute things are sane and calm the next minute you are asking "what happened" how did things get to this point?

 

Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.

~ Benjamin Disraell ~

 

I am a firm believer of telling people the truth, but how do you tell someone the truth when you are trying to protect someone else. How do you look someone in the eyes and hurt them, when you know how much it would tear you apart if you were in their shoes. How could you hurt someone you actually "claim" to care about? Now I cannot honestly look this person in the eyes without breaking down and at the same time I cannot avoid the person.

 

It's been a while since I have felt this crappy about myself and for me to be writing this article at this hour of the morning says a lot, especially for me to even be writing personal stuff on my space says even more. I had to find someone to talk to and right now the person I am about to hurt is the last person I can look to for comfort.

 

 

What makes it so plausible to assume that hypocrisy is the vice of vices is that integrity can indeed exist under the cover of all other vices except this one. Only crime and the criminal, it is true, confront us with the perplexity of radical evil; but only the hypocrite is really rotten to the core.

~ Hannah Arendt ~

 

 

I find dating in this day and age to be so hard, because most times sex is always brought up way too early. Most guys seem to think if they play there hand right, they might just get "lucky" after the first date, while most girls are sitting there looking at him thinking "this fool thinks he is going to "get lucky" because he took me to this expensive restaurant". "Never let the little head do the thinking for the big head".  ~Author unknown

 

Most girls would like to go out on a date with a man who is simply there with her, because he likes what he sees in her, and not what she might be able to offer him at the end of the night. A nice quiet evening of eating and pleasant exchange of words trying to really get to know each other is sometimes all a girl wants. She is not trying to hear, how sexy her ass looks in the jean pants or the skirt she is wearing, or how much her breasts are calling out to you to be touched, sheeeeesh control. While at the same time women men are not trying to go out with someone who is only there because she thinks she might just get lucky and get more out of the date like say what is in his wallet. Now I am not saying all women are opportunist or that every men is trying to sleep with a woman after the first date, I am just trying to point out some of the major negative things we all face at times when out on a date, they might not be along the same line but pretty close.

 

While I know there are girls out there who would be flattered by these comments on the first date or they would even go further by making the first move on the date. I remember reading this book call "Confessionals", a young lady was describing her first date with a young man. She said he was a total gentleman, he didn't try to kiss or touch her, he treated her like a lady, all this time he was being polite and sweet all she could think about was getting him into bed. After the date he took her home kissed her on the cheek and went back to his car, on the second date, she decided enough was enough and she had to take matters into her own hand and made the first move and of course they had sex that night.

 

Now after reading this article I was saying to myself clever man, let her make the first move after all she cannot say you forced her into sex too soon, this was all her doing. All he had to do was not mention anything about sex, didn't try to touch her and treat her with the outmost respect sheeeesh it is that easy....take notes guys, but this does not work on every woman though, remember that also, and so be careful when you try to use this move on other women.

 

 

 

Sometimes I wish I had the power to disappear while out on a date and I am sure a lot of guys and women out there wish they had the same power as well. When going out on a date with someone, the most important thing to do is make sure you "size" them up very well before you start asking certain questions. Now I am sure most guys think when asking certain women" how was your day", they think this is a safe question to ask. But sure enough they will realize they are just giving her the opportunity to talk about what happened a week before which would lead up to why her day is like the way it is today. And women what ever you do when out on d date with certain men do not ask "so what do you do", this will only cause you to sit in boredom for maybe the entire night listening to him bragging about how important his job is and the important project he is working on. Now sometimes you wish you could stop them from boring you to death, but of course you are trying to look all interested and polite, but sometimes it is ok for you to just do or say something to change the topic and if they realize what you are doing so be it, why should you try to spear their feelings, when they are not trying to spear your ears.

 

I remember one night I went out with a friend and a couple was sitting across from us, now from what was being discuss you could tell it was a first date.  Now from the time we got their to time we left that young lady kept talking and talking and the poor guy was their trying to be polite and look interested, the only thing you heard from him was "huhh or hmmm please go on" now that right there is wrong, don't do that to someone. This young lady clearly never heard that Well-timed silence hath more eloquence than speech.  ~Martin Farquhar Tupper, "Of Discretion," Proverbial Philosophy.
 

All I want when out on a date is good company which would involve pleasant exchange of words, a nice quite dinner "candle lights would be lovely" in an open place of course and depending on how comfortable I feel with this person, a little night walk on the beach under the perfect stars above,"I am a night beach kind of person and a hopeless romantic I know". After this he would drop me home and a little kiss on the cheek is enough, kissing on the first date is not something I am very fond of after which and we will take it from there. I know we all have our rules about how far you would go on a first date and what type of outing you would prefer for your first time, but I am always a sucker for something romantic, but not too romantic to cause confusion.

 

Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance.
- Oscar Wilde